Monday, July 23, 2012
So sorry for the minor interruption in my posting last week. I had a lot going on in my head that I had to work out. First of all, I was seriously considering moving in with my sister. She's moving back to NYC and needs a roommate. I had to make a decision rather quickly because if I wasn't going to move in she had to find a roommate. I thought about it at first and was like 'am I really going to uproot my life almost on a whim?' and then I was like 'this would be a great opportunity to advance my career and help build Raw Generation.'
This was the struggle I had in my head for 5 days. I have been very comfortable here in my awesome (very spacious) apartment 6 blocks from the beach close to all of my friends and most of my family. I have spent the past few years slowly making changes so that I was less stressed out, more calm, and healthier. On the other hand, I have always wanted to live in NYC. It would definitely be fun, but very different from what I am used to.
In the business coaching program I am doing, they talk about getting out of your comfort zone so you can grow. I am realizing that maybe I am too comfortable and I need to stretch myself. So I was like 'I can just sell my car, find someone to sublet my room, put all of my stuff in storage, continue working, and move in 5 weeks!' (That sounds like a Jess type of agenda) Well, I went up to the city Friday to look at the apartment. It's such a beautiful place, however, it's small. I stood in it by myself for a solid half an hour trying to figure out if just the bare minimum of what I needed to survive and work from home would fit. Not happening. And then I looked at the "kitchen" and asked 'where the hell am I going to cook?' Not happening. And then I asked myself if I could get by without cooking as much as I do.
This was the point where I had to checkin with myself to see if this was actually right for me right now. I have been working on this blog for almost a year now. My goal in writing to all of you is to share my experiences and the things I have learned about living a healthier life. Food and cooking have been my main topics (although more recently I have broadened my scope to other aspects of living a healthy life). And more recently, I have been "cooking" and testing for Raw Generation. Can I really live somewhere that is going to be physically impossible for me to have the space to cook and prepare?
As much as I would love to tell you that I am spontaneously moving to NYC in a few weeks, I had to stick with my more logical roots, be honest with myself, and listen to my gut.
ME: 'I would love to be in the city to explore and meet new people and live with my sister.'
GUT: 'This is not right for me right now.'
ME: 'I can do all of this. Work and get all of my ducks in a row in a few weeks.'
GUT: 'I need to plan this out so that in the next year I can make a move into something that is going to fit the lifestyle I have created and want to maintain.'
So there you have it. I am going to stay where I am and set myself up so that in the next year I can move into the city if that's what I still want to do. Everything has been changing so fast lately. I have a hard time keeping up with myself.
So there is a 2nd reason for my mild absence last week. I finished my first e-book. It was a 2 day writing marathon to get it to the point where it was 99% complete. I am getting it reviewed by a few people right now for some constructive criticism, and then I am going to get it posted up here on my blog as well as Amazon. I have no idea how this process works with Amazon so if any of you have any idea shoot me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org. I'm sure it's not that difficult, but any advice would be much appreciated. This is my next step... to get it selling. I'll be writing a post dedicated to explaining it when I am ready.
So, last week was hectic but super productive. I feel good about my decision and am glad that I was able to weigh the pros and cons and listen to my gut feeling. As much as I love being spontaneous, moving to the city on a whim is just not the type of thing I think I should do right now.
The moral of this story: listen to your gut!